That was that.

This week is soon over and a new one is here tomorrow. This week has been...well...just been filled up with things. Thoughts. Happenings. Mostly studies. I am studying Master Programme in Religion in Peace and Conflict and these weeks have been interesting. I have been reading three books about social movements, Gandhi and Robert Coles book about the Call of Service, a pulitzer price winner! Then We have been asking questions to our class-mates and writing letters to activists. Every week we have a book to read and tasks to do.

Then I have been thinking a lot about my mother with her dementia. It has been hard years lately and even if she has had her dementia since 2002 it has been years filled with hope, tears, stress, wishes, anxiety and more hope. Not until 2007 the doctors found out that something is wrong. And before that I have been talking to many doctors, who do not listen. The worst kind is the ones who laugh. Right in my face and just say that there is nothing wrong, she is just old. Well. She is born 1930 but has always been active and smart. I can see the change - I am her daughter. And another thing that is bad, is the rest of the family and relatives. They do not phone, visit or send letters. They have slowly turned their backs. I can understand that this is an easier way to go instead of helping. It is not fun to visit either because she does not know who you are. But do it for my dad, who day after day takes care of her. 

I visited my diabetes doctor some days ago and all was well, but it could be better. I am going to do my best to get better sugar levels and start to move. The surgery I had a year ago made me tired and all the things going on around me made me not want to do anything. But now! I will have a smaller check up in December to see how I am doing. I have lower sugar levels already after just a little change. Eating less.

But this made me get a bad headache the following day. It hurt during the whole day. I never have head ache, so it felt strange. And I just needed to be in a dark and quit room. But that day I had to do some shopping, bake, study....it was tough. And in the evening I fell asleep fast. 

I hope that this coming week will be calmer.

Have a blessed new week.

Hugs, Niina